An informal and mostly personal blog. I am a Public Relations major, so I hope to use this more to practice writing, but that won't stop me from posting about my feelings and in a sometimes grammatically incorrect manner. :3
~ Two Thousand and eleven...Big Bang Big Bang, We back again one more time say No way No way~
Lyrics to BIG BANG's new come back single, Tonight
This is what has made me quite happy. I pre-order it a while back and was waiting...
Yesterday i checked my mail and found this!
Wooo yeah~ The CDs are cheaper from Hong Kong so that's why it says that insted of Korea.
Anyway...now for a bit of insight. BIG BANG is one of my fav bands of all time, especially Kpop wise.
They had been apart to do solo stuffs for a while now. don't quite remember how long, but pretty much each of them did solo stuff. Then GD and TOP even did a duo...which was super epic! i am so getting that CD next. Anyway, so they finally got back together and released a come back album. What really erks me is WHY THE HECK COULDN'T KATTUN DO THIS??! I dont understand. Did they not want to wait for Jin to do his solo stuffs? Yeah, I know it wasn't their's or Jin's decision but they could've had influence if they really wanted to. I dont like it. They dont sound the same...and KTTUN DOESNT WORK! But whatever...stupid Johnny H. Kitagawa. but i digress...
I was soooooo excited when i got it. My roommate could even tell i was happier. When my roommate left the room to shower, I just sat there on my bed with the envelope in my hands. I started to take pictures and then i got the brillant idea to do this:
Warning: It turned out to be 15 minutes. DX sorry... (not that any reads this and will watch this ><)
Imma dork, i know. But hey, at least im passionate about my likes.
So i think that'll do it for now.
Until next time~ Laila
P.S.
Im typing this when i should just now be getting back from Ultimate Frisbee. Tonight, disappointed me. I COULDN'T go. No one could give me a ride and the escort service was only doing walking ones. Pointless. So no fun times, my "workout", or seeing certain...people. At least i did a lil bit of studying. Dx
This will be a blog post about a few of my main obsessions. When i obsess, i go BIG! Just like when i crush i usually crush hard...but thats another story of which i talk too much about. (sorry if it bother you but i have this thing of not capitalizing my "i"s. Get over it.)So to give anyone a little insight on the true me and what floats through my head...here it goes.
Most of my obsessions have a central and main theme...ASIANS! Although, if you really know me, you'll already have this figured out.
SECTION ABOUT JPOP:
This is pretty much how my love for Asians exploded. (i credit the start to anime/manga because of my best friend, but i don't know much about that cause i didn't stick around. There is still a like for it though.)
There's a little (not so lil actually) entertainment company in Japan called Johnny's Entertainment. I know quite a bit about this whole umbrella of talented males. Yes, it is an agency for only male talent, but that's ok, we all love cute boy bands, right? I know i do. There's so much that i want to say about JE that i think i should save it for another blog post altogether. Basically, this is the beginning of a beautiful obsession. Credited to my bestest friend in the world. We would randomly break into dances from different songs by bands in this, or actually sing parts of it. No one at school understood us. We were in our own lil world.
New song from my fav group, Tegomassu. (Actually a subgroup of a band called News)
From there, I moved on to other Asianness!~
-whoosh sound- SECTION ABOUT KPOP:
Ok so this is my current main obsession. I can't get enough of them lovely Korean guys. No matter how much I love Japanese guys, i believe that Korean idols are hotter in a more manly way, Jpop guys are feminine, but i digress. So my first Kpop love was a group called DongBangShinKi aka DBSK/THSK/TVXQ (kpop,jpop,cpop version of name). My friends and i loved them dearly. My best friend even bought a DVD of their 3rd album so it had music videos and behind the scenes. We would often watch it and dance to the videos like how they were. (we even picked who we wanted to be, basically our fav member.) Remembering all this makes me sad now. You wanna know why? Well im telling you anyway...THEY SPLIT UP!! Dx Our world ended when this happened. 3/5 memebers felt that their company was not paying them enough or exploiting them or something. Did you know that they had the biggest fan base in the WORLD? The fan group was called Cassiopia and had like 800,000+ members But no, they had to go and break everyone's hearts and split into two groups, JYJ (an acronym of members Jaejung aka Hero, Yunchun aka Mickey, and Junsu aka Xiah) and then the remaining members (Changmin aka Max and Yunho aka Uknow) still under the same entertainment agency kept the name TVXQ (which i don't believe is right ><). All this is very heartbreaking. They were all so close especially watching them on behind the scenes and extra things. Why would they just break up like that??? Dx and i digress...
Now, I'm a fan of lots of other kpop bands. Like BigBang (my fav), Shinee, 2NE1, Supior Junior (was actually a fan around the same time as DBSK), 2pm, 2am, SS501, Girls Generation (SNSD).
Here's the comeback video for my fav band BigBang. They were apart for solo activites:
SECTION ABOUT TWPOP:
I would say Chinese pop, but specifically they are from Taiwan. I actually only got into TWpop through TWdramas. I can actually say that the music in Taiwan dramas impacted me more than Jdoramas (unless it was an artist that i loved). I found the music to just jump right out at me and say "Look at me!! I'm cute and happy!!" or "OMG im so gonna give you chills and make you cry even though you have no idea what I'm saying unless you look at the subs." It happens. But, yeah. So most of the TW artists i know or songs that i have on my Zune are from the dramas i've seen. (If you are confused on what a drama is, see next section.)
I had knew of some TW/C artists before, like JJLin or Golf and Mike (which G&M are a taiwan branch of JE and collabed with Yamapi to form Kitty GYM for a promotion to women's volleyball tournament). Anyway, artists i like now are Farenheit, S.H.E., Nicholas Teo, Rainie Yang, Cyndi Wang, Vaness Wu
(was part of group called F4).
Here's a song that i really love by Rainie Yang that was on my most favorite drama ever:
SECTION ABOUT DRAMAS:
IM OBSESSED WITH ASIAN DRAMAS!!!!! That's all you really need to know for now.
Well basically dramas are Asian tv shows that usually only last one season. But that's how it's supposed to be. Depending on where the drama is from and how big the story line is determines the number of episodes. It can be somewhere between 11-20 something. Sometimes, dramas will get a second season or a movie. I will blog more about dramas some other time. TMI for right now!
SECTION ABOUT YOUTUBE:
I think the first Asian youtuber that I watched or was interested in was KevJumba. I didn't really stick with him at first, but I knew about him. Next, was probably Nighiga. I was shown these youtubers through online friends from a social networking site...for Asians. lol. No, I didn't pose as an Asian. They let me join cause i had a strong interest in Asian things. I am still friends with a few of the people i met on there. Anyway, just by that, it exploded into a LOT of Asian youtubers. They came out of know where and i started to subscribing to all of them. A few i found through other Asian youtubers collabing. But a lot I found on my own. Then the most amazing thing happened, THEY ALL STARTED COLLABORATING WITH EACH OTHER!! My world got happier. So now there's this Asian Movement on Youtube and they all help each other with videos and what not and it's so much fun. I feel so connected to them even though I've never met any of them. Just watching them vlog and post random vids and skits and such, i feel i know them personally. I even call them all by their real names now, insted of their youtube screen names. I follow them on Facebook, twitter, blogtv, youtube, tumblr, and their own websites and blogs. Now I shall list them in a long list: Wong Fu Productions, Nigahiga, KevJumba, Community Channel, Bubzbeauty/Bubbiosity, Shimmycocopuffs, David Choi, Aj Rafeal, Mychonny, ...and then dance crews came into the mix somewhere along the way Quest Crew, Marvelous Motion/ I.aM.mE. I may be forgetting someone, but oh well. You got the idea. Here is a GREAT collab that a few did with Smosh as well and it was a medium film, insted of short film.
-sigh- Well that took forever. But there's my main obsessions for you. This made me think that it is just previews of other things for me to blog about. Sorry for the lengthyness...if anyone even read this far anyway. ><
In the words of FarEast Movement:
LIVE FREE STAY WIRED!
~Laila
Why can't I just not have crushes. Why do I have to be such a girl?!?!
No need to answer...nothing will change.
There's times when I want to give up on this crush, and then times when I don't. I know nothing will ever happen between us, but I keep holding on to hope.
Gah I wish I had better things to blog about. But this is the only thing that I really wanna talk about, but I feel it's too trivial to talk about in person, so I save it for blogging. My friends that blog always have something interesting to blog about or witty little stories about things. I got nothing. Nothing but how my love life is not where I want it and no matter how much I wait and rely on God, secretly I want something to happen anyway. Then there's the times I say things about how something happened and I saw it as flirting when it really wasn't and I overanalyze. Or there's the times like last night when I want to give up completely. I heard him say something about he hopes his date with a girl goes well, or even if they do go on a date. In my heart I wanted him to be referring to me. Obviously, he wasn't because why would he talk about asking a girl out on a date right in front of me if it was me.
Gah i need to stop this.
Today was Vday. well technically yesterday, now. It was an ok day. Pretty lonely for the most part though. I wanted to spend time with a friend, but he had things to do. He always has things to do now and doesn't invite me. He doesn't even talk to me on his own now. This morning was the most we've talked in a while, and that was just a brief convo before class started. I miss him. He kinda seems mad at me, I hope i didnt do anything to him. He even had a dinner date with a Valentine tonight. Why does he get a Valentine, I thought he wasn't that type of guy. Im sure it was just the friend i know, but what if it wasn't? I wouldn't know because he doesn't hangout with me anymore. I pray for him all the time now. He doesn't know how much i really care for him, even if i don't agree with some things he believes in, or rather doesn't believe. My heart is broken for him most of the time. Friend...i miss you.
There's also someone else i miss.
I went to his facebook profile and wrote this on his wall, but didn't post it.
i love you. not sure how not sure why, but i do. you seem to get me, we have common interests as well. i feel like i can be myself around you. you are a Christian a Baptist at that. guys like you are hard to find. i feel safe and even wanted when im with you. could we be something more? Can we go further than holding hands? It took me close to 2 weeks before i held hands with my actual boyfriend, it only took the second time to spend a day with you and we aren't even dating. i wish you were here. i wish i knew you better. i wish you could touch me and hold me again...I hope im not rushing into this but i feel something different with you than my other crushes. could we have a future together? do you even feel the same way i do? i may not ever know. im scared to get close to you again because you'll bring me in just to push me away and tell me we should be friends for now. its for the best but i think its not what we both want. at least this is how i think you feel. these are things i want to say to you, but can't find the courage to and i dont think its the right time to say it. until next time...miss you.
That pretty much sums up how i feel about him. I don't know if he'll ever get to know those things. We'll see this summer, perhaps.
~Hoping to find love one day~
Laila
My frand Laurin drew me! YAY!~ I love art. I love art so much that i hate it. This makes sense because i wish i was good at it. This also makes me miss my friends back home, and one that isn't back home and is closer than i thought. But either way my friends would draw me sometimes...cause they could. ><
As the title suggests, today was superbowl sunday. I'm never excited about the superbowl, but this time I was invited to a Bible study party thing. It was much fun. Great discussion with great people during Bible study. We read Acts chapter 3. I have heard this story many times before and even know a song about it. Its when Peter and John see the lame beggar at the gate called Beautiful and the whole "silver and gold have I none but such as I have I give thee. In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, rise up and walk." (yes i just sang the song for that in my head. It's actually a kid's song, so its not known...i think.) A lot of things were discussed and I think it was an excellent time of fellowship and Bible study. Although, when I decided to talk HE had to walk through the door right during the middle of my schpill. I had been secretly wondering where he could be during the Bible study. Of course i was paying attention, but I just wondered what he does when this stuff happens. He went straight to his room. I don't understand why I like him. Apparently he isn't Christian which is not what im looking for. Maybe if he did like me or get with me I could influence him? WHAT am i thinking?!!? 1. that'll never happen 2. im sure im not his type 3. My friend has probably whitnessed to him many a time seeing as they are roommates and buddies from back home. After, Bible study he would come out every once in a while to watch the super bowl a bit and then go back to his room. When he first came out, it looked like he had been crying. Even a girl said she heard him sound angry or upset on the phone. I was worried about him. I did manage to have small conversations with him, while everyone else seemed to kinda ignore him. But im just being...idk dumb. I thought i had given up on him, but apparently not. I guess because he's so Asian and so hott. WTH! I need to stop. Anyway, today was fun. And Glee was great. I need to go back and catch up on glee, even though i have a whole season and maybe half to watch. This dang bump/growth thing on my lower palm/wrist makes it painful to type. Gah im rambling. And i need to go to bed. Dang 8am class. Well, guess this is goodbye. Hope my roomate's freakin boyfriend leaves. He better not spend the night again. >< Night love~ Laila
It started out as a Bible study, because our regular Bible study (Refuge) was cancelled due to bad freezing weather. All day long I had been waiting for snow. It kept getting colder and colder all week and I was waiting patiently. Anyway, back to the Bible study. We met up at a friend's apartment, there ended up being at least 20 people there. After it was over, people slowly started leaving. Then, someone called and said their car was stuck. It was decided that we all needed to stay there for the night because it would just get worse. The most epic sleepover was formed. We built a fort out of sheets in the living room, watched Hook and quoted it and had deep Peter Pan discussion. Some of us kinda fell asleep, but then woke up to go outside and play in the snow!!!! Ah it was so much fun, talking and eating egg rolls, and later popcorn and hot chocolate. I love my friends.
I just wish that I could have spent more time with a certain someone. It's not like it would matter though. I do want to be better friends with him and get to know him better, but he makes it hard being semi-antisocial. He's always going to bed. I think the best thing to do is stop trying. Only a few people know that I like him. I just know it wouldn't work out, plus I know he doesn't notice me much or would ever like me like that. I probably like him for the wrong reasons anyway. I give up.
Well, I think this makes for a pretty good first blog post.
Blogger, Thanks for having me. lol
~Laila
