Summer Thoughts.

Well, this summer wasn't what I was expecting it to be.
Originally, I had planned to be working at CPN (my tribe) this summer. I even had a job lined up and everything. Then, things fell apart. My place to stay suddenly couldn't house me for family reasons. Soon after that the job told me they wouldn't be able to hire me anyway because of funding. My guess is that God didn't want me there for a reason. Actually, I think I knew the reason but I choose to ignore it. Later in the summer that reason comes back to hit me in the face. Well, not literally, but I finally come to terms with it.
Basically, I was stuck at home most of the summer. This was good and bad.
Good: I got to spend time with friends and family.
Bad: I was bored for a lot of the time and...may have made some not so good choices.
The choices I'm referring to may or may not involve a guy. Don't worry, it's not terrible. I still have my V card and I didn't get close to losing it. I just had a "what if" situation with a guy friend. Enough about that.
Um...let's see. Oh yeah.
My summer didn't get fun until the end of July.
Two words. Darren Criss. (I love this perf. Especially the phone incident.)
Yup, I saw him in concert. But yet again, it feels like a dream.( Like when I saw Miyavi.) I still can't actually believe I saw him in person. He is an incredible person. I'm kind of upset that I wasn't his fan before I found him on Glee.  Gah! I just can't find the words to describe him right now. He is so much more than Blaine on Glee though. If you really want to love him, go watch Starkid stuff. Like A Very Potter Musical.
Anyway, i digress... My bestie and another friend went to Six Flags Fiesta Texas to see him. It was ok, I guess. Six flags, not the concert. The concert was amazing.
After that, went to a family reunion.
Then i was supposed to go to Six Flags FT again to drop off a cousin with his sister, but we ended up staying. I didn't have much fun cause i was just there.
The next day, my friend that would bring me to Oklahoma took me and our friend from OK to Schlitterbaun. It was my first time and I had SO MUCH FUN! Although, I lost my good pair of flip-flops. sad face.
On to Oklahoma!
It was a blast. I stayed with a family that I've fallen in love with. They are basically my second family. I went to a church camp with them while up there, Indian Falls Creek.

 That camp is really really great. I'm kinda lacking in description abilities atm, but it is just so amazing. I really love my Oklahoma fam. Although, while there the thing i had to come to terms with happened. I was rejected. Well, not straight-up no, but he said he only has friend feelings for me. Maybe that's what God was keeping me from. He didn't want me to go up there for the wrong reason and get hurt. Now that I finally know for sure how he feels, I can move on. It is a little hard, but slowly I am letting go of my feelings. I started getting myself in way too deep. I may already be. I fell in love not only with him, but his family. I went to his Dad's birthday party when I got there. I even finally met his Mom and like her a lot. But, I guess it's not meant to be. I'm still going to keep in touch and be his friend. I'm just not going to wait on him anymore. I'm moving on...
Not that there's anyone to move on to. I don't know if I even want to keep my crushes anymore. Once again, I am back to where I started. Lonely and without hope.
Right, enough of my pity party. (I guess I don't care anymore if someone reads this. Like anyone will though.)
So I'm back in college now. I like my classes so far. Apartment life is pretty cool. Except for the fact that I'm not on campus so it's inconvenient. No car para mi.
Yeah so i think that's all I'm gonna write now. I'm tired...of this. lol jk.
NIGHT!~ OYASUMI~